Unfortunately, I have to make an unhappy post. It's almost the reason I made this blog: so I could be the one student that didn't cry to the internet every time something went wrong. But I guess I just didn't have it. I'm technically still a teenager, so I guess I'm just going through the final throes of my teenage angst. Something like that. Regardless, I a sad panda right now.
The worst part is I don't know why. Baseball started on Wednesday, and though I'm sore all over, I'm very happy to be back with the guys and doing things. Classes are going fine, though this internship thing is sort of stressing me out. I really don't want to go back home for the summer (though I can't even explain that) and all this down time is freaking me out. I was told in late December that I would be asked in January to schedule a phone interview (by two places I applied). Well, January is almost over but I haven't heard back from either one.
I don't know if I should contact them (my dad says they're busy and will get around to me), but I feel my Haskell comprehension slipping through my fingers as I spend less and less time programming for fun and more time programming for class. Honestly, who uses awk nowadays (don't answer - I know its still around)? I need the Haskell knowledge because one of the positions involves programming in OCaml, which is very similar to Haskell from what I've seen of it. Also I think its a shame I don't know how to use regex in Haskell, but that's mostly a product of my obsession with HTML scraping.
Next week is hell week for me: SOSC paper, analysis midterm, biology quiz, and a crazy lab of CS. I took the full brunt (as my House's vice president I have to take it) of some yelling during my neighbor house's House Meeting yesterday, which is unfortunate because most of them are my friends. I'm very unsure about my future because everywhere I turn someone is doing something better. Basically I'm unhappy right now with my life, and I doubt I'll be feeling better anytime soon.
Actually, you're a pretty great person. I don't know you very well, but I have a lot of respect for you, and I am sure that you could not be hard pressed to find people doing more poorly around you as well. I understand how you feel, though. Best of luck next week. I hope you're happier soon.
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